Whadda ya gonna do?

So work offers me a promotion. However, they then offer me no more money and tell me to trust them. The last time this happened to another tech, she was fired a week later. They swear me to secrecy. And what can I do? There are no other jobs around here. I like what I am doing. Now they want me to run the surgery dept. Pushing paper and pencils. I have a job, I have a job, I have a job, I have a job. I guess that will be my montra.

An idea

So, maybe I should switch gears on my blog. Maybe I should write a blog about vitamins, health, or maybe eyes, LOL. That way I could try to get more coverage on my blog and then I can have links and advertise and make some money too. Any ideas?

Year coming to a close

Wow, it's been since April since I last wrote. Well, I need to start up again. And with the help of a certain friend(you know who you are), maybe she can keep on me to keep writing again. I need to get creative again. I lost my creativity. I lost who I am somewhere along the way this year. Maybe I am just in another mild depression. I don't know. My husband and I are better now than we were the first 20 years. But, when I took him back, I gave up my dream of just traveling the country for a few months. I took security and companionship over risk and adventure. And financially now, I cannot afford to go to Italy, Costa Rica, Oregon coast, New Hampshire, ect.. I need to get the management job at Vitamin Shoppe the 3rd quarter of '09. But with the economy they may back out coming to this area just like Trader Joes, Walmart, did. If I can get that job, I will make decent money for a year or so then take my money and run. Nice dream huh? Well, my hopes with my blog this time is to try to have some kind of subject matter, maybe like finding God and really knowing him, and in turn find me again too. Wish me luck!

Amazing

His presence is amazing. All that He does. He heals, He gives mercy, He gives strength, He is always there. Praise Him!! (New music below)

Granite Mountain

Here is some of my own Granite Mountain pics. Love the area. My new favorite hiking spot!!

New music

Nice new song from Dolly Parton. Enjoy.

Better view

Here's an edited version of my feathered friend!

Spring favorite!

Here is my famous front tree that blooms with a beautiful color. Wish I knew what it was. It develops huge green leaves. Notice the pic that came complete with a little friend!

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The river of thoughts, of emotions, of life. Each one flows to an unknown ending. Tossing and spinning through the bends and curves. Only to calm into a stillness and then proceed back to the unknown.

Easter

The folks are coming up this afternoon for the weekend. I really wanted the weekend by myself but oh well, can't have everything I guess. In a somber mood. Want to have some introspection time. Got bit by something or something happened to my big toe. Have a nasty infection on it. Wanted to hike today but looks like a long walk hobbling along instead. Have to work 9 straight days after Sunday. Oh well, need the money to pay all these freeking bills. Happy Easter all.

New music

Such a pretty song. I thought I would add it to my blog.

Always something

Came home from work last night at 6:30. Realized the furnace went out. Needless to say it was a cold night, especially cold morning, 28 degrees. Had my stove on in the kitchen and my little space heater that cranks out pretty good. Still have vertigo so didn't sleep much anyway. Finally got somebody out and said it was the motor that went out. Guess it will be repaired by tonight. Thank goodness. Not keen on freezing at night.

So sad

So sad that so many people in this life suffer. I feel so blessed. I woke up with vertigo again today. I refuse to believe that this is a lifelong curse. But going back to my point, I feel I am pretty fortunate. So many people in my life are struggling. It's too bad.

Asking too much??

What I want in a man…..

A person to share the joys and struggles of life together
Somebody to romance me, make me feel special, and feel like a woman
Somebody to share equally in the chores of life
Somebody to communicate with on an intimate and non-intimate level
Somebody that is proud to be with me and call me his own
A person that wants to try new things and experience life
A man who takes the role as head of the household
A man who acts like a man should act - protecting, loving, caring, making major decisions that concern our welfare
And the all important one - HONESTY!

I shouldn't even be thinking about what I want in a relationship right now, but I need to put it out there. If STBX has a lobotomy and becomes all these things, then more power to him. Doubtful.

March snow?

Just when I thought it was safe to buy flowers, we get a spring snow. We all knew it was coming.

Roomie

My niece has made the decision to come out here in June to live with me. She decided it would be best for her situation. I told her whatever she wants. I think we will make it work. It will be good. We both get along really well. I won't let her down!

Nothing much

Nothing much going on. Just kinda of writing just to say I'm still here. Supposed to get a cold front tomorrow. High of 39. Snow, rain. Then it will be beautiful again. Need the moisture but ready for spring to stay. Anyway, have a good day everyone.

The world is spinning

Woke up today. Have the dreaded 'vertigo'. Have not had it in almost a year. I have had the little off balances here and there but not the whole kit and kaboodle. What does it mean? I didn't eat any artificial sweetner, so that's not it. A cold front is due in Saturday. Maybe that's it?? But those of you who know me, could it be something is up in the world?? I give it a week to see if something big happens. For whatever reason, it's usually in Indonesia somewhere.

Scarey stuff

I feel better today. I actually got some sleep. I took dramamine to make sure of it. I just read an email from my childhood friend in Michigan and he just lost his job. Not sure of the details but I am sure he got layed off. He had been talking for awhile about the slow sales. What is going on in this country? At my job, our sales have gone down to nothing. If I don't find a more secure job soon, I will be going back to school to get into the medical field. Medical assistants make about as much as me, but at least the job should be more secure. I just don't know if I can deal with the vaccinations that are required when you enter the program. If I worked for blood services again, at least I can sign a waiver not getting a hep b vaccination. Gas is supposed to be up to $3.50 by memorial day. That is exactly what I said last summer. I should have bet money on it. I have a bad feeling about this year. I say let's move to Europe, or Canada!! I have my passport, I am ready to go.

Just bored

Woke up with a fever and chills at 3 am this morning. Sitting around all day. Contemplating things, life, what nots. Guess it was good it was my day off. Feel like the creepy crud. I am sure it has to do with stress. Stress does so much to the body, the mind, the spirit. Entered this photo in the annual birds and bloom photo contest for next spring. Hope I at least get an honorable mention!

Updated!!

People are probably wondering why I deleted my last blog. I have my reasons. I needed a change, a new journal, new pics, new format. I hope this one is better than my last.